'My first Love'

And again the professor asked "what do u mean by fertilization ?"
We were having a biology class in the 10th standard and he had told me to
stand up and had asked me this .Maybe he had noticed I wasnt paying attention

But all I had on my mind was Sophia
who was sitting in the first bench listening aptly to the prof , but now
looking towards me as I was supposed to answer . I answer ??? Let alone the
fact that I didnt know what was fertilization , all that was on my mind
was how she had smiled the other day when I gave her back the mobile phone
she left in class the day before . It was evening when we had met . She had said
"Thanks!!" . I cudn't help but say "U look beautiful!" . And she said "Thanks!!"
again and left . That was all . But after that day I have caught her eyes at times
looking towards me . So that day in biology class I was almost whole of the time
looking towards her in expectation when wud she be graceful enough to give
me another look . I was hungry for that one glance she wud give ...

"Mr. Dev what do u mean by fertilization ?"

That suddenly brought my gaze back to the prof . I nudged my friend sitting
next to me . He was nothing better than me , but still did some studying
at times . So he wrote on the desk "Its how seeds or babies happen" . That
clue confused me even more . And I saw Sophia looking towards me . That was
it ! I had to do something . So I told ,

"Its how babies happen sir !"

Prof said , "Meaning .."

"I dont know sir , but mostly it means insertion of the male penis into
the female vagina"

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I was clueless as to why the whole class burst into laughter . All I remember is
I also started smiling as I saw Sophia was reeling in laughter . I dont know
why but I felt like a hero !

"U will wait for me outside when this class gets over . Is that understood Mr.Dev"

"Yes Sir!!"

I sat down . Saw 10 minutes till class gets over .Took a sheet of paper.

And I started to write ...


""Like a dream you can't explain u can chase a beating of my heart
Like the sunshining in the rain u can make my whole world fall apart

All i wanted now
I just wanna spend my life with you
Time will show me how
Suddenly everything has turned me inside out
Suddenly u're the thing that I can't live without

You are my dream my love my life
I just wanna spend my life with you
You are the one who makes me smile
I just wanna spend my life with you

Gotta love somehow... I just wanna spend my life with you
You can show me how

What have you done to me?
Is this how its meant to be
Can't control this feeling in my heart
I can see paradise glowing inside your eyes
And I know you feel it in your heart

Love is a crazy thing
Its like when you wanna sing
And the words are deep inside your soul
When somebody comes along together you sing a song
You just let the music take control

All i want is now
i just wanna spend my life with you
Time will show me how
Suddenly everything has turned me inside out
turned me inside out
Suddenly loves the thing that i can't live without

You are my dream my love my life
I wanna make u my wife ...

What say ??""


I was good in english u know !!

So when I was going outside when class got over , I "accidentally" Slipped
beside Sophia's desk and ... well ... secretly gave her what I wrote .

So this was my first love . Ofcourse life moved on . We went around for sometime .
Those were the craziest days of my life .What I found was she was crazier than me !!

But maybe , the world didnt like it. So ultimately we fell apart .

Few days ago I heard she is in a rehabilitation centre . She had moved
into very high society , did drugs and all that came with fame , tried a suicide but
fortunately failed . I went to see her . Her parents have died . She was alone .
So , I brought her to my home . She barely recognizes me u know . All she can
recollect is my name . She likes "Dev" . But cant seem to associate me with the Dev
she knew . Maybe I have changed . But let me tell u one thing she hasnt changed a bit !
Not at all!

Right now she's sitting on the windowsil infront of me . Like she always sat in that
first bench . And I am looking towards her . Although now instead of desiring it , I am
afraid of her gaze which always seems to ask "Why ??" ....